you are just shedding
when you are not perfect or when you are not always optimally performing it leaves you questioning yourself as to why you are not as you expect yourself to be (which is set on false expectations anyways) so it's like this big illusion and then you end up getting in your own mind about things and one of the hardest lessons I have had to learn along my journey is that down are just as valuable as the ups you know it is where you kind of shed your skin when a reptile sheds its skin, it does not move a whole lot it kind of sits still for a couple days and it does its thing it is not a lot of activity going on but it does not mean that it is dying it does not mean there is anything wrong with it it is just going through its natural process it comes back with a new layer of skin it comes back healthier and more energized than before