What's My Name ?

i think the worst rejection is falling for someone who is not ready because it is not a lack of chemistry  it is not disinterest there is something there you can feel it in the conversations the way they look at you the moments that feel real and then the closer you get the more they pull away it is confusing in a very specific way you start wondering what you did wrong, what changed what part of yourself was too much and sometimes their fear is not a response to you it is a response to closeness to vulnerability  to the weight of something real someone can care about you and still not have the capacity to show up the way you need they can feel it too and still shut down and that does not make them cruel it is just means they are not in a place to choose connection without fear the hardest part is accepting that timing can hurt just as much as rejection that 'almost' can ache more than 'never' and that wanting someone does not make them ready learning to walk away from ...