maybe it is just takes a while

Falling in love with somebody who stays patient with you while you unlearn survival mode

is one of the most healing experiences that human can ever have.

Because most people think that love is supposed to feel electric,

urgent,

and intense.

But safe love almost feels suspicious at the start

because your nervous system has been trained to wait for something bad to happen first.

When someone stays, 

when they don't punish your triggers,

when they don't leave, 

when you go silent,

and they don't make you perform to be loved,

your whole body starts to relearn what it actually means to be held and cared for.

Your nervous system and your intuition already know safety,

but sometimes it just takes a little while to trust it again..