waves of the ocean

sometimes you cant understand why

you are in the state that you are right now

is because you are trying to find the answer in some logical form

in some pragmatic like

mathematical formula of like

" I did this and then this happened and now I am like this "

and perhaps that is the case sometimes but

a lot of times it is not

a lot of times it is just something shifts internally

and the energy is different and you lose the motivation

and you feel disconnected from your vision

and your passion

and the things you used to love but you just don't love them the same right now

the reason that that is because there are natural tides to life

I often describe them as the waves of the ocean

you know they come and they go

and as human beings

it is within our nature to want to grasp onto the things

that we want the good times

and desperately push away and reject the bad times

given that I have been through my fair share of these ups and downs to say the least

the greatest understanding that I have taken away from these experiences

is that 

regardless of what state you are in right now

maybe you are at absolute rock bottom

it is never been this bad before

or

maybe the cycle is just starting

regardless

there is a mountain that you are climbing in life

you are after something

there is a reason that you desire

a better life for yourself

whatever that may look like for you

you want more freedom,

you want more control,

you want more clarity,

you want more love,

you want more gratitude,

you want more adventure and spontaneity

and creativity and passion in your life

these things are difficult to obtain

and that is the nature of them

and so if that is the mountain

it does not matter if you have it together right now or not

because either way you haven't left the mountain