you are just shedding

when you are not perfect or when you are not always optimally performing

it leaves you questioning yourself 

as to why you are not as you expect yourself to be which is set on false expectations anyways

so it's like this big illusion 

and then you end up getting in your own mind about things

and one of the hardest lessons I have had to learn along my journey is that

down are just as valuable as the ups

you know it is where you kind of shed your skin

when a reptile sheds its skin, it does not move a whole lot

it kind of sits still for a couple days

and it does its thing

it is not a lot of activity going on

but it does not mean that it is dying

it does not mean there is anything wrong with it

it is just going through its natural process

it comes back with a new layer of skin

it comes back healthier and more energized than before